Thursday, January 7, 2010

New years Resolution

have thought
Long and hard about
What my New Years Resolution
should be.
Wanted it to be
I could accomplish,
that would be a challenge.
My goal?
you may ask...
Is to have another baby!
I'm not pregnant.
But I hope to be byFebruary.
is this a challenge?
If you know my history
and have read my blog
you will know
my last was not easy, in fact it was a rollercoaster of emotion and tri-weekly dr.s appointments, and scares that the baby might not make it. The Doctor says it could be different this time, but I'm not banking on it. I think it will be worse.
Why, then do it again?
Well, it's hard to explain.
But I just feel, like there is one more baby out there for me.
I feel so strongly about it, that I tear up just typing this.
I know the dangers of what "could" happen,
and they are very real dangers.
I am willing
to go through it all,
(just one more time)
because I know,
even if I lose the baby on the way,
this is the right thing to do.
Wish us luck,
and a few prayers wouldn't hurt either.
Happy New Year!